Wednesday, December 2, 2009

The New Life

Being home for the holiday was a good thing. I never thought I would say that. It was nice to be far far away from him. I didn't have to see him. We txted just a bit. A couple of emails went back and forth but for the most part he was far away.

It was nice to have family to help. We never talked about my drama. I brought it up a time or two but everyone stayed clear from the topic. Now my mind... it really has struggled. Watching couples be together. Husbands help with the kids. Then there's me alone. We took family pictures. YEP my new little family got pictures too. Me and the babes. The entire time I wanted to dig a hole and cry.

I love being taken care of. I hope I am blessed with that again one day.


  1. Come move into my house and I'll take care of you :) hehe!

  2. Ill bring Oman up and we'll have a big ole slumber party!

  3. I am sorry he has made such mistakes but I'm glad you can move on to a life you deserve- with respect, truth and love. I continue to pray for you and send you my love :)

  4. I'm glad you got to spend the holiday with your family who loves and takes care of you. You deserve that!
    (and you know any time you need it, us local ladies will take good care of you!)

  5. Sweetie, I am just so freakin' sorry. Can I just take a moment to tell you how wonderful you are? How lovely and filled with light you are? How you can make me laugh so hard and even get me to drive over the bridge. And I just have to pity him that he will miss out on a lifetime of that and that he can never take the YOU from you--and you get to keep all that love--that pulse--that makes you YOU forever.

  6. I just recently started reading you. I'm glad you are back, I'm sorry for your loss, but really hopeful for your fresh start. If you can envision it, I think it will find you.

  7. I'm so glad you were able to go home and spend time surrounded by supportive family. You need that.

    I think you're fabulous and are handling all this extremely well.


  8. You WILL find someone again. And this time it will be someone who can cherish you. And you will have fun raising your babies with him, but it will be apart. That first Christmas will be hard. But use your family and friends for all of the support in the world. So many hugs for you.


  9. It's great that you were able to spend time with your family. (((hug)))
    You are going to get through this rollercoaster ride... but it may take awhile.
    hang tight hon.. you've got some great support.

  10. I love what 'Lollipop' said! You should post that up in your house and read it over and over b/c it's ALL TRUE and so beautifully said.

    You and have not spent a lot of time together, but I knew after just a few days that you were a woman with strength, compassion, wit, fun, and light (and a ton of other wonderful qualities)! You are a shining light. Yes you are.

    One of the things that drew me to you was your transparency and 'realness'. I hope you have people you can still be that way around, even with all the crap right now.


  11. Wow. I can't believe you guys never talked about it! I thought about mentioning it, but figured I would just call him ugly names... I couldn't think of anything I could say in person that could be of any more use than I could say online. Anyway, it was wonderful to see your skinny self and your beautiful babies.