Thursday, April 15, 2010

Breathing is Optional


I find myself wanting to come back here so often but then the world (twins) fill my every moment. When I finally have alone time I am spent. So here I am with little ones crawling around filling the room with noise.

People ask all the time... How are you? My reply is usually fine. good. okay. They shake their heads, smile and say... I don't know how you do it. I then reply with... I just do it. Its easy. This week hasn't been that easy. Today hasn't been that easy.

My little ones have been so fussy. Most of the day has been spent with whining. If one starts the other follows just as loud. Nothing has worked to quiet them. THIS is when I hate him. I need a break. Back in the day I would have called him and let him hear them cry and say... hurry home. Knowing he couldn't but at least he knew I needed him. Now there isn't anyone to call. Yes I have friends but no one needs to hear my whining. SO I pray. I give thanks. I thank God for His joy, His strength, His perfect peace. I hold my little ones tight and apologize for checking out.

Its crazy how days like this start like this. My eyes open and it is hard to breathe. Tomorrow is Friday. They get to be with their dad for the weekend. I get to have LOTS of girl time. By the way, thanks to all my friends who schedule time with me each day. You have NO IDEA how much I need human contact that isn't just from a computer screen. Now computer screen thanks for letting me get my session in. Breathing is becoming easier as we speak.

Be looking for a post about online dating. HA it all just makes me laugh.

Saturday, March 20, 2010

Quiet Saturday Mornings

The children are with their dad. Yes I miss my kids LOTS but I embrace my weekends. They are times for me to re energize for the rest of the week. When they aren't here I just stay in bed listening to the quiet (minus the moving truck a few houses down). Enjoying my bed, the fan, sunshine coming into the room. I make coffee and begin the day nice and slow. Silencing all the thoughts in my head.

I am going to be just fine!

Thursday, March 18, 2010

I'm BACK!!!

My break is over. Life keeps being so full of surprises (said SUPER sarcastically!) I just wanted to send you a green cheer today!

Monday, January 25, 2010

Moving On For Now

After a lot of thought I have decided to move on with my blog. I don't feel the need to come here and share anymore. My life continues to stay complicated but one thing remains the same, my sweet twins. I have decided to start a blog about them, innocent and sweet. I don't want to make it private but I also don't want to share it with the world. If you would like to keep up with my little ones shoot me an email, you will find it on my sidebar. My only request is to not post my blog on your blog.

Who knows, I might be back one day but for now only my little ones will be 'speaking'.