Thursday, April 15, 2010

Breathing is Optional

Right?

I find myself wanting to come back here so often but then the world (twins) fill my every moment. When I finally have alone time I am spent. So here I am with little ones crawling around filling the room with noise.

People ask all the time... How are you? My reply is usually fine. good. okay. They shake their heads, smile and say... I don't know how you do it. I then reply with... I just do it. Its easy. This week hasn't been that easy. Today hasn't been that easy.

My little ones have been so fussy. Most of the day has been spent with whining. If one starts the other follows just as loud. Nothing has worked to quiet them. THIS is when I hate him. I need a break. Back in the day I would have called him and let him hear them cry and say... hurry home. Knowing he couldn't but at least he knew I needed him. Now there isn't anyone to call. Yes I have friends but no one needs to hear my whining. SO I pray. I give thanks. I thank God for His joy, His strength, His perfect peace. I hold my little ones tight and apologize for checking out.

Its crazy how days like this start like this. My eyes open and it is hard to breathe. Tomorrow is Friday. They get to be with their dad for the weekend. I get to have LOTS of girl time. By the way, thanks to all my friends who schedule time with me each day. You have NO IDEA how much I need human contact that isn't just from a computer screen. Now computer screen thanks for letting me get my session in. Breathing is becoming easier as we speak.

Be looking for a post about online dating. HA it all just makes me laugh.

7 comments:

  1. Looking forward to that post!

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  2. Looking forward to that post too. Online dating makes for good blogging...I think I remember writing a few of those a few years back. ;)

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  3. Miss you... wish I was there! This makes me want to kidnap you and take you to a winery even MORE when I'm there!!!!!!

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  4. Sigh. It's not easy. Not one bit. You're in my thoughts and prayers.

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  5. Yup, life can be challenging. You are strong hon... hang in there.
    I look forward to your on-line dating posts. :)

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  6. Hi, Sunny. Thinking of you and breathing with you during the hard times.

    And sending you cheers as you celebrate your birthday.

    Hugs, Sunny.

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